ok, so for mother's day at church, the primary kids usually go up to sing a song to the mothers. well, i had been talking to grace about that all week, mentally preparing her for sunday. since she is a sunbeam, this would be her first time to go up on the stand to sing. she didn't really seem interested in going, but i kept reminding her that on sunday, the kids would go up and she could go up too, if she wanted. well, we have sacrament meeting last, so, during primary singing time, the kids were practicing their songs and i asked grace again if she wanted to go up during sacrament meeting (i'm the sunbeam and ctr 5 teacher, so i'm with her during those times). she told me that she didn't want to sing the songs, and i asked her if she just wanted to go up and stand there with the other kids. she said that she wanted to do that, but she emphasized that she 'just wants to stand.' i said ok, and to be honest, i was a little doubtful that she would actually go up since she is so shy.
skip ahead to sacrament meeting... time for the kids to go up... i tell grace, ok, go up and stand by the girls... she goes out the aisle and up to the front and sister astle... bless her, she loves grace so much... puts grace right in front of all the girls. ok, so i pull raegan onto my lap and point up to grace and say... 'look, there's grace singing.' well, she see grace and just about flips because she wants to be up there with her. she keeps saying... 'go see gracie, go see gracie'. well, grace hears raegan and turns her attention to us. and she waves... how cute. then, she starts talking to me... from the stand... she says... 'mom, i just want to stand here.' i'm like... oh great! ok, i whisper to her, 'ok', and do the shushing things with my finger over my mouth and then give her a thumbs up just to let her know i heard her. then, she says it again. by this time, the songs have started and she is still talking to me... saying, 'i just want to stand here.' i continue with my efforts of shushing her, giving her a thumbs up, and proceeding to turn a brighter shade of red each time she talks to me... well, after a few minutes of her saying 'i just want to stand here' over and over, she looks at me and says, 'i can't hear you mom, i can't hear you.' by that point people are actually turning around to look at me and laughing. i'm sure i am bright red... then sister astle... bless her again... says 'grace!' and that ends her talking for the rest of the 2 songs. she quietly comes down and sits with me and i tell her i am so proud of her for going up there... she says again... 'mom, i just wanted to stand up there'... and i told her that next time, she didn't need to talk to me.